What I fear most has happened.

Today, It can be my worst day of my life as what I fear most has happened again. Which is Boredom. I realized that fun cant last and every time, I seem to be having a big problem here, which is I cant capture the moment and make it last longer. I am getting sick of boredom. Today, I woke up around 12 noon. Having serious headache, probably after yesterday sleepless night, I keep thinking of something. Probably, things happens in this way.

I wondered sometimes "Is it bad to treat people too good and they will think you are chasing them?". To me, I say "Hell, No!!". Why ? Because I am sick and tired of relationship. I starting to enjoy my single life as I love the freedom I get. I feel so great and so life like. Or should I put it in this way. "No string attached". No need to care or think about other people's feeling when doing an acion. Is that really hard to do? Hmm...now I am scare to treat people good, treat people equally as peoples have different needs and demands. Even I am myself, don't know what I really want in long term?. Now I only know that I want to have fun and chase back what ever I miss for the past two years.

To end this, I just hope this boredom situation will end soon. If not, I will be suffering several injuries soon.

Added: Why I need to end my day in such wasteful condition? WHY WHY. I guess I am poisoned with outing already...

Added Again:~2.38am: I feel better, as my boredom is gone,just right after my race around PJ with 150km/h, my heart feel the breeze, the speed. I feel the boredom diminish as I drove the car, the sound of engine roaring. This is what I called the human art of speed. The level is different.